chemistry is love

chemistry is love? dude, i'm talking gibberish. i've lost my head.

i think i've established 5 years ago that chemistry is just a big a-hole clog. so far it's done nothing for me that's 'that' incredible. well nothing that i know of directly at least. maybe it has. like bonding Na and Cl gives my lunch it's great taste. whatever.

the thing is, i think i'm better off knowing the fact that CHEMISTRY HELPS ME IN A LOT OF WAYS than knowing exactly HOW chemistry helps me (molecularly). i think i don't lose too much not knowing that the intermolecular forces of a certain state of matter affects it's vapor pressure, polarizability and electronegativity. after all, i could just be freezing ice. i really don't give a damn.

i've been puking of pre-laboratory and post-laboratoy reports that have all been incredibly and amazingly stupid and useless. i just hate doing them. not to mention the actual experiment which is a four-hour hocus pokus of shitass weighing and heating and CLEANING UP. it never ends; it's a worthless dance of circular dumbness. arg. i'm better off reading a theology book so i can be closer to god and not to sulfur. damn.

i'm not sure why i am so mad at chem yet. i am so sure that it's gonna help me someday but i still still still despise it so much. maybe because i don't get high grades. maybe because it just tires me so. maybe it's just not as interesting as i would find music. maybe because it just sucks. i can't really explain why a lot of people would be interested in boiling shit and finding out what happened to the vapor, how C4H9HOO23C4HOCHOO5 bla bla bla looks like molecularly. it's disgustingly annoying.

for now, however, i'm it's bitch. and i might never get to take revenge on it forever. i've been missing quizzes in my 7:30am chemistry class since i got here. it's not nice! the weather's not cooperating, traffic isn't too. what am i supposed to do, wake up 4am and start cruising to school? nah, i don't think so. baket kasi nagpapa-quiz ng ganung oras? our teacher's a jerk. that's why. it's like a double punishment. you're late and you missed a quiz. doesn't it just make your day run in the great outdoor sunshine in a great gratifying grin?

ah chem, maybe you'll never die but the people who teach you do. so die bitches. you proponents of evil.