listening to: gravity by sara bareilles

"You hold me without touch.

You keep me without chains. I never wanted anything so much than to drown in your love and not feel your rain."

i am on a high. i am hyped up. i am sucked in a hopefully temporary warp. i might go crazy.

this is aaron johnson. if unfamiliar, there's google. the song verse up there just seems appropriate, i dunno.

i know i know he's one more cutie-patootie that's all over the movie scene but i swear he's not a chick-flick guy. he played lennon in a movie; ain't that something?

before my disease strikes again, and before i lose my calm, i am not going to try to tell you or myself, in this blog's case, now or ever, how gorgeous, out-of-this-world, bla bla, flowery flowery words, etc he is because, well you have eyes don't you? so do with them. i should toss in, though, that he has a british accent that melts butter in ice. (it's the high.)

there's a catch though. he's married. to a total big shot and brilliant artist and director. who is about 20 or so years older than him. and they have a kid. and it keeps getting more painful yeah? i know.

i don't have a point basically. i just...

no wait. i do. i love this! no school is the best! suck it.

in other news: i'm in cagayan. i'm working on a diet scheme. i'm doing disease inventory for my sister. she's a bastard. that's it.

p.s. get your dose: http://fyaaronjohnson.tumblr.com/ :D

passed!

this is mildly embarrassing. but i'm gonna write it still. i looked at my aisis account today and i have never been this happy to see D's. i know, i disgust the living buh-jesus of my fatherland (for history), all scientists (for biochemistry) and sheldon cooper and archimedes (for physics). sorry peeps but i care less about what you think than in passing and graduating. it was as simple for me to say, "basta pumasa" back when i was still stressed with the last million school work load and it is still easy for me now to see D's as marks of my efforts during the sem that was.

wow i'm not a failure, but a dead beat bum-- wala nang tatamad pa, wala nang mas lalaking procrastinator. to be honest, i didn't spend enough time in the library like i did the past years. i didn't stay up late a lot of nights, didn't edit my work over and over, didn't restrain pleasures enough. in short, i was a lousy student. i watched, slept, played whenever i wanted. i probably lost interest in the last year of college. there wasn't any time for savoring the aroma of the end of a long test because surely enough, there was another one coming up the next day. it was awful. that's why maybe i just decided to just swallow everything and told my hard subjects to fuck off. i ain't killing myself for no shit like you.

while i cursed my subjects, deep inside, i'm terrified that i might not graduate and i'm really begging fate to hold on to me right now more than anything first. and it did. so now, seeing my D-angles instead of F-ailures is a cherry on top of my otherwise unbearable senior year. i'll probably write a goodbye post soon when it starts to sink in. for now, i'm just gonna bum around for as long as i can. :D bye, bitches.

p.s. passed UE and FEU. i have a future! :D