anong boni?

i don't know what's going on. i think some people are pissed, some don't bother to care at all.
pag sinisigawan ka na ng ibang tao, matamaan ka. what the hell is up?

i work my ass off studying whatever shit school has to give me. it really doesn't give me the crap of care because that's not the hard part in studying away from where you lived all your life. it's these:

1. homesickness. it's like being sucked out each minute of your strength because you can't get what you want. it's like craving for a flavor of ice cream that doesn't exist anymore.
2. attention. you get new friends yes, per semester. they leave you after. it's like a vegetarian shark living in a fishbowl with other fish but they don't come near him because he's a shark, he's not their kind.
3. weird people. people come in and out of a classroom but there are some you just wanna smack to hell because they just piss you off with the way they dress, speak and act. uhuh, there are people who don't effing care what people think of them. but you can't beat the crap out of them can you?
4. being alone. when you really can't take people because all they know compose of "gossips, school work, hot guys" and all those shit, you go away because you can't blend. you stay away and be alone somewhere.

but whatever, who the damn cares, when i go home to tuguegarao, i'd feel comfy and at home. because duh, i've friends there. real ones. invaders, boni. teka boni? sino yun? i barely see them, friends? saan?

so here's the catch. you still live just minutes from each other, sure you have other friends but the old ones are still the best. be with them while you still can. i know i would trade that for anything if i had the option to. i live hours from boni but i keep a yahoo group for them, reply and initiate entries if i can to show them that i still live for them. i don't forget.

i don't talk about gossips in fact i'm not even updated. i can't keep track of every event. but i'm here. how about homesickness, attention deficiency, weird people and being alone as factors to fight huh? give it a try. live somewhere else, let's see if you forget everything.

if you wanna live a life in the present, give a crap about your past because it mattered and it still matters. if you wanna forget, smash your damn head against a wall and find people to be friends with, see if they care.

i can differenciate life here from my life there. boni, can you?

bang, thanks for talking. now i know something's wrong.