dont-you-just-wish-you-were-just-dreaming moment

i'm bothered to my guts. i'm distracted and i just wanna go and sleep so that this feeling would just magically teleport to my unconscious and be lost there forever. 

if someone tells you something.. so..  SEEMINGLY impossible to you (pay attention to my emphasis on seemingly), so unworthy of ever getting any attention from you in a million lifetimes, its hard to let it off. its like a drill that inches its way in your system until it reaches your brain and stays there. only the dumb operator forgot to turn off the noisy blasted thing. 

if someone tells you something you don't exactly enjoy hearing exactly WHEN you are unprepared to hear it, you get knocked out. after you get hit by a jumbo fucking jet plane, everything slows down; you feel heavy and it drags you to that drill in your head.

I CANT FINISH THIS. I'M SLEEPY. my eyes are shutting. 

ZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ