legal. so?

NOTE: most of the following posts starting with this one here are catching up entries. i wanted to document them here for the longest time already but i just wasn't able to anymore because i didn't have time. :P so yeah, i did list them down so i could still ram em all up here.

so yes i turned 18 already last year. december 13, 2008. wow. i feel.. so scared. i can't figure out what i'm scared of though. that people might expect better things from me? or that "i" should start expecting better stuff from myself?

urgh. it feels so weird because i know i'm still this immature jerk but i'm already "this" old and i AIN'T CHANGING! i'm still playing with my thoughts, with toys, talking silly, laughing at senseless things, doing crazy crappy things. i still don't follow what i think when i feel they are boring (ehem schoolwork); i mean i know they are important but i feel like i can do them later. urgh. again.

i'm 18 and i really don't know what that means. someone tell me. it drives me crazy thinking about all i have to do, accomplish, figure out when i'm this old but when i forget about it, i FORGET about it. oh boy. what is up?? dayng.

oh well, happy birthday me. maybe it's telling me i should stop failing my subjects huh? yeah maybe that. phooeyy. >:( argh.